Today of sorts

        well today has had its ups and downs definitely. I awoke from a bad dream with with my boyfriend beside me which would have been a great thing if we could have talked enough to get to the root of the issue. We did talk however, and it made me feel better or it at least sugar coated the way i felt until later when he comes home from work At 10. Which is not a very happy thought for me especially considering i have a new bone to pick with him that is specially top priority reserved for that spot. Oh did i mention that his name was Shawn. Well Shawn and I had a pretty ok day scratch this morning when i had one of the worst possible break downs imaginable that i never thought i would snap out of (I guess thats just what happens when you have the childhood that I had) and up until this moment when I found out some information that i am not quite proud of. The time in-between however, had very little to do with me and Shawn. He worked on butter cup (our car) as i hula hooped. Afterwards, WE washed the car (I guess we had some togetherness time today) but after i got dirty and wet trying to perfect the art of cleaning the car we came inside for a meal before he went off to work. Which may very well count as togetherness time. After that however he had to head straight to work, which made me sad. He's been stressing about a lot lately and im trying to be there for him to the best of my abilities but its kinda hard when we don't see each other as much as i would like. (which my friends is another thing that comes with moving in with your partner) If you think all of a sudden time is going to be on your side and your going to have hours to sit and watch each other breathe think again. In the real world, which is our world people have jobs and other activities that that up there time so you might not get to spend every single second together no matter how much you want to. On a higher note the time that is spent together you should make marvelous and magical. Oh gosh i am so far off subject. well yes after Shawn left for work I came back into our room with the cat and dog  and pondered what I should do next. I was dilly-dallying around when I came across something I probably shouldn't have. Thats the bone that needs picking at 10 o clock when Shawn arrives home. Now don't get me wrong i am not a girlfriend to snoop and pry but when i have my feelings... its instinct. But we'll touch on this whole fiasco maybe tomorrow. I do miss my boyfriend however, but until ten he is someone else's problem ha-ha. Maybe today will brighten up. I mean i have to look on the bright-side of things so yes, today will get better. It is only 5:30 and there is plenty to do! :) keep updated!
love always
-Natasha